It's the 11th day of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah, I have been able to perform fasting up to today. For the past 11 days, I am constantly reminded of how lucky I am to be given the opportunity to fast and insyaAllah, to still gain some "pahala" with the special prayers performed only in Ramadhan.
My thoughts keep on going to Mak for the past few nights. She wanted to fast last Ramadhan. She only managed to do so for the first few days before she collapsed due to low sugar level and was advised not to. So, she did not fast for the rest of Ramadhan.
I recalled the time when she was admitted to the ICU of Johor Specialist Hospital. The time she wanted to speak to me but could not be heard because of the tube in her mouth. She gave hand signal but I just did not know how to decipher. I was exasperated and cried.
Who would have known that last Ramadhan was her last. The same goes to all of us. None of us know when we would be called to meet our creator. I am 44 this year and even if I may not have diabetes or high blood pressure like Mak and Abah but there is no guarantee that I would reach 70 just like them.
With such realisation, I remind myself that I have to improve my spiritual obligations for I may not be able to see next Ramadhan again!
Ya Allah! Hambamu bermohon agar janganlah dijadikan Ramadhan ini yang terakhir buatku! Amin!
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